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I’ve become one of those people who only does meme’s

well, just for the time being at least. So, here’s the drill. Lannie gave me 5 words that she associates me by, and now I get to elaborate on them. If you want me to give you 5 words I associate with you, then comment below.

1. Leo

I am leo, hear me roar. When I was younger I wasn’t much of a leo. That grew in time. Over the years it’s become one of the things I use to describe myself with. You know, it’s easy. “Hi, my name is Brenda, and I’m a redheaded leo.” It’s kind of like I’m saying “Hey, I’m social, I’m proud, I’m loyal and competitive. Oh, and lazy, because I’m not actually taking the time to tell you all of this, I’m just going to assume that you know what I mean when I say Leo.”

2. writing/nano

I have always been telling stories. When I was just a wee Brenda I told stories with my barbie dolls and my playmobile. All my little characters went on vast adventures. I guess that’s also why I was a great friend to hang out with on the playground, but a sucky friend to take home and play with. I always came up with big stories to act out, and I got so pissed off when my friends deviated from the storyline.

I also loved writing short stories when I was a kid, but that also provided me with a problem. I couldn’t write. The whole pen and paper thing, I mean. My handwriting is terrible, and my hand cramps up in minutes, and I struggle to get the stuff that’s in my head onto the paper. Computers are a blessing to me. To be able to get my thoughts onto the ‘paper’ as fast as possible is brilliant, even though there’s still no way I can keep up with my brain.

I wrote poetry for a long time (you know, you’re seventeen and emo and you write poetry. Yes, I was that kid.) but I dropped that when I discovered nano. Nano opened the floodgates for me, and all of a sudden I could crank those entire storylines out with ease. And it’s great. It’s not so much a way of processing things as it is a way of expanding on my reality.

Needless to say, I love writing. I don’t think I’ll ever stop doing it.

3. Ocean

There’s something indescribable about being out at sea. Having nothing but a vast blue space around you. It clears the mind, it purifies… I wax poetically when I have to say something about the Ocean. It just still feels like I’m coming home when I go to the beach, and it’s always felt this way. The sea and me, we’re tight

4. Metal

I remember being… eleven or twelve or something, and hanging out with my sixteen year old cousin. He was into Metallica, and Sepultura and bands like that, and I thought that was very cool. So I told him, “I think I like metal too.” And he was like: “So, you don’t like metal, you don’t even know what it is.”

I guess that’s what triggered me to find out about it. I listened to a lot of Metallica, which should explain why I’ll always love that band, even though they do their very best to break my metal heart. It wasn’t until I turned seventeen that I really got into metal though. I got into a lot of different bands, different subgenre’s, and naturally, being seventeen and a snob, I was a snob about it.

So I guess that’s why metalcore didn’t really start settling in with me until I got over myself

But yeah, I just love metal. I love the energy, and the raw emotion that comes with it. And the guitars.

5. Alkmaar

ok, I know the next item on the list actually said ‘Heerhugowaard and Alkmaar’, but Heerhugowaard is just an extension of Alkmaar anyway. It’s where I grew up. Home, I suppose. I definitely see myself as a ‘Noord Hollander’ and a ‘kaaskop’ most of the time. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever feel at home outside of Noord Holland, but then I remind myself that people are in fact still people, even when you leave Noord Holland.

At least that’s what they say.